tomorrow is a school-declared holiday, by virtue of the 20+ golds and several silvers and bronzes we've won in this year's inter-school season.

the cambridge people are flying off on tuesday. sigh it's sad that not enough people can make it for the originally planned class party tmr, cos then the class can make our final goodbyes to you all... dunno if we're going to pon math lecture to send you all off, but i think it's not feasible so yeah. sad.

to cambridge people: do enjoy yourselves and study hard as well! come back and teach us all you've learnt about othello and PnP =) and be sure to take lots of pictures. that i know geri will take care of haha.

walter will be back tmr! so at least our class will not be that sad. there's still 14 people in class, unlike 1b which will only have like 8 people left xD

was just talking to a church friend who's currently sec 4 in rg about her options. one major sticking point for her not coming to rj was the "pressure". i mentioned to her about a letter in today's forum page - a JC student wrote in to say that "JC Life is one hard slog". so its not just rj - its everywhere.

i was in her position last year as well - seriously assessing my own interests, what i wanted to study in uni, appropriate scholarships, and my career choices. toyed with a lot of fanciful ideas, including applying to UWC, and studying TSD. in the end, i still made a pretty radical choice - vaulted from triple science to triple humanities. and im glad to say that so far, i havent regretted it.

only thing i regret since the dawn of this year was our moving house. i prefer the homeliness of our previous estate, the nearness of the amenities and me having my bed, study desk and books all in one room, instead of the current arrangement where bedroom and study room are separate. of course, and the fact that boonlay is so freaking far from anywhere except tuas.

i seriously don't know if i'm going to turn out like one of those success stories that rj churns out every year at the announcement of a level results or one of those forgotten ones who happened not to do as well. having a thousand plus other batchmates, of course, doesnt help much.

of course there's always those fortunate ones who seem to have everything: brains, the latest phone, laptop, mp3 player, home that is so near, and a personality that earns the approbation of the general population and teachers.

but i am reminded here that there are also those who don't have even some of those listed above. and so i stand corrected.

i need to stop thinking so much. i think i can go mad.