hello world.

its the second day of the first week of term 2.

how interesting. lalalaa.

today i made a shocking discovery. my seating partner's becoming numb to the world!

normally i talk to her in class and joke and stuff and she responds. now when i talk to her she is like, numb! she doesnt feel anything! ahhhh im going crazy!!

nolah. just worried about her, that's all. if both of us become crazy then my other seating partner how. she sitting beside two stony people, also will go crazy one.

sigh. do you know that no sec four taught by mr eric lau put "strongly agree" for the question "i seldom worry about life" or something like that? what does that show you about the nature of rgs?? by the time you reach sec four, if you still are bochap and stuff you are so gonna die ah. but then you also get people like my seating partner who are not bochap but they dont worry so badly already. its like they have lost all sense of excitement, adrenaline, fear, horror, or anxiety. they have become mere homework-doing, pt-finishing machines. they have become robots. they have stopped living and are only existing to get through secondary school and i heard from seating partner that rg principal actually mentioned some propaganda on the newspaper on how rgs actually spaces the work out and lets students enjoy their work due to the lack of the o levels. bullshit! look at people like my seating partner! want more proof??

gahh. by the way im not mentioning names on this post for fear of possible repercussions in light of certain events which have made people feel less secure. but well. at least i still can feel fear, if not other emotions.

but sec four in rg is not the worst. my softball senior lost 3kg in the first 2 months of going to RJ! how bad is that. anyway she says she lost 3kg but most of us in softball dont believe her. we think she lost at least 5 or more. see the stress man. and another senior says that if you can get through jc, you can go through anything in life. wow. can i transfer to poly like, right now??? sigh.

anyway got to go soon. its already 10 plus and i got a game tomorrow. homework can always rush in school lah. bye bye world.

today was like the first major outing my family had in a long time! (= and it was quite fun lah haha. i bought a GREEN and BLACK jansport bag! raffles colours whee. actually its mostly green haha. its funky kay x) parents said it looked obiang though. its not kay! even my bro agrees with me lor haha.

and i think my stomach is very weird. just last week i ate as if my stomach was some bottomless pit lah. these few days though, im struggling to finish a decent plate of rice. hmm... weird. and of course, adding the seemingly violent reactions of my digestive system to soy, which doesnt contain lactose, i have nothing to say.

and i would like to add, one learns something new every day (= one extremely good way to destress and to up your threshold of stress is to fit a routine in your life which you love very much and is consistently regular enough to allow the intervals of stress between it not to build up too high. for me its like softball.... three times a week and it never fails to help me destress every time. sure, it has brought me certain problems too, but the very thought of it during stressful periods (like on mondays or weds - mugger days) cheers me up. yay =D

and if you wanna force yourself to learn how to tolerate stress in a more forgiving environment than the real world itself, go rgs x_x i dunno whether this sounds like a promotion or a criticism, but well, its open to interpretation lah.

okay i gotta go now. i have a match at 8.30 tomoro mornign which means i need to reach padang at 7, which translates into having to wake up around 5.30. and i still need to pack my bag for tmr. which means i have to say goodbye now. hahah. adieu, amigos.