eoys are coming! gen is trying to act calm but is actually very scared! >_<

i keep telling myself that if i just pass everything, i'm happy... then the thought of failing comes to me cos i got a feeling that the teachers are feeling sadistic so they set the papers really hard ): so then i feel guilty for not feeling ganchiong about exams. then i cram cram cram and finish the worksheets. mostly i get them correct, thank God for giving me the intelligence to remember the concepts and having ways to remember them as well, but i have an annoying tendency to become really panicky during tests and then forgetting everything -_- which would of course invalidate all the cramming that i have attempted to perform during this two trying weeks. sighs. if that really happens i dunno what i'll do to myself.

haha. anyway. im particularly scared for lit. unseen prose/poetry. number one, i have never done well in poetry and will probably never do. i need prompting to be able to see the richness of the language in poetry , which of course will be absent during tests. im okay with unseen prose, but when im writing i tend to go off point. too much stuff to say lah. only got 18/25 for the recent unseen prose test -_- but the highest was 20 so i guess its not that bad lah huh. hmms.

the thing was lit is that its not that ling2 huo2. there are certain points about the passage that if you bring up, the teachers will definitely mark wrong no matter what you write later on to elaborate on that point, unlike philo test on fallacies where if you explain clearly the teacher would accept regardless of whether you identified the correct fallacy in the answer sheet. thats what i dont like because sometimes what i come up with is vastly different from what the expected answer is and even if i manage to validate my point the teacher will just mark the whole para wrong. sucks eh. sighs.

anyway. came up with a study programme for tmr. is hoping fervently that i'll be able to follow it at least roughly. i have a knack for not doing things according to schedule. hahh procrastination is my middle name >_< lol. well sighs. i dont like text conversion. why cant they just stick with good ol' narrative writing. and chinese. im definitely not going to be able to finish it on time, considering all the lijiewenda that we have to complete plus tian cong plus summary. all in two hours?!

and chem. im okay with it, i just hope that i'll be able to understand the questions. i think i'll be fine from there.

ss. gahhhh. im so scared for ss. all the link link thing. finally i understand how to write a "well-written" comment -inducing essay, but that was only for principles of governance. i dont know what im going to write for active citizenship can. grrrr.

physics. should be fine lah huh, going by the last test. and math. if i dont keep thinking about the ludicrous amount of money i will be wanting to splurge on myself after the math paper and then playing netball (my second fave sport - after softball, of course haha) i should be able to do fine. after all, geom props of circles has been the only topic in math that i'll ever be able to do decently well and prob ever will. ohwells. i just hope that my math marks wont look too bad. fat hope though. what with just passing for the whole of term 3 >_< sighs.

alrights. shall stop complaining. off to finish up my study programme. bye! and all the best for eoys people! jiayou!