haha today marks the, well, third day of liberation from eoys! (= though my class had to go back for some math field testing thing from the examinations branch of moe -_- quite difficult but i managed to do some lah. i left some blanks too, but who cares? xP

woot this morning before math we (meaning yiwen mushroom rachc shulin and me!) went to kbox! haha i was the earliest to arrive, reaching somerset mrt at 10.15, a full half hour before we were scheduled to meet -_- i seriously have some problems estimating time. anyway, i almost got lost trying to get to cine, knowing the dork that i am, but yeah well around 10.25 i reached cine. it was so dark and people-less and many shops were closed so i just walked around aimlessly. the security guard looked at me as if i was a loiterer or something x) well actually in a strict sense i was. so i went to bk, having lots of time to kill, and bought an ice milo. then mushroom came haha she practically sauntered in. from my vantage point at bk which was directly opposite the entrances her silhouette was amusing to watch. but aniwae. yeah then both of us walked around aimlessly around the second floor then went back down to first floor to wait for yiwen who reached like only at 11? hah then we went up to 4th floor. kbox not open yet so we like stood there and talked. theres a movie called chicken little coming up and the chick is so cutee! x) in the ad it was dancing to the tune of dragostea din tei ahhaha. okay. i think the sec three softballers should go watch it no? xP

yeah. then finally the thing opened and rachc joined us. the first room we got, the tv kept hanging -_- the worst thing was it stopped hanging when the shuai kbox guy came in! i bet he thought we were just using that as an excuse to get him in the room x) haha then he transferred us to another room, a bigger one. it hanged again and we calld him in again haha. he finally turned the power off and on again in exasperation and guess what. the tv hanged while switching on! hahaha so we were again transported to another room. thank goodness this time the tv worked fine, and we were well away from everybody (= so didnt need to have to bear horrendous renditions of certain pop songs by wannabe singers hahaha.

hm yeah at 2 then we rushed to school for the math thing. i should really talk about things in order. sigh. haha but anyway yiwen went back to school then changed in the pb room cos prefects not allowed to wear uni outside when shopping or whatever. we waited for her so long, then leening found that she was looking at the mirror -_- anyway we were slightly late for the math thingo but yeah alright lah the invigilator was an old man who didnt really care when we wanted to leave early so he just collected all the papers of those who couldnt care less about the paper and were impatient to leave. hah yeah. hms.

yeah anyway me rachc and the rest of the netcarn players are coming back to school tomoro to prac for netcarn (= but its so scary the other classes are so enthu about it and we havent even started practising. lol we might get a thrashing next monday for all we know. haha.

alrights. shall end here. i have a penchant for blogging too long entries haha.

6 down, 3 more to go! (=

doesnt help that the last 3 are the ones with the most calculations huh x) hahah but im still glad that two thirds of tests are gone and done away with. no matter how difficult they were, im just glad that im confident i wont fail, except maybe for chinese paper 2 . heh if you were one of the people i spoke to about chinese paper, you would know what stupid, retarded answers and methods of coming up with answers that i used during the paper. really, im expecting to like borderline pass/fail -squeezes eyes shut- im rather glad and thank God that my mind was rather clear throughout the ss paper, cos i think thats all you need to do well for ss. hahas im looking forward to post eoys -winks at lingxi- i bet we'll enjoy this year's post eoys more cos this year for rp cos we had stress throughout the whole year, 'specially term 3 and 4. [I TYPED A WHOLE LOT OF THINGS HERE AND THANKS TO STUPID BLOGGER ITS ALL GONEEEEEEE ARGHHHH]

alright. time to go be good and mugger and print out chem+physics practice from inet. lalala. im going jogging later! -beams- off with the lipids!

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hahaha! so fun!

eoys are coming! gen is trying to act calm but is actually very scared! >_<

i keep telling myself that if i just pass everything, i'm happy... then the thought of failing comes to me cos i got a feeling that the teachers are feeling sadistic so they set the papers really hard ): so then i feel guilty for not feeling ganchiong about exams. then i cram cram cram and finish the worksheets. mostly i get them correct, thank God for giving me the intelligence to remember the concepts and having ways to remember them as well, but i have an annoying tendency to become really panicky during tests and then forgetting everything -_- which would of course invalidate all the cramming that i have attempted to perform during this two trying weeks. sighs. if that really happens i dunno what i'll do to myself.

haha. anyway. im particularly scared for lit. unseen prose/poetry. number one, i have never done well in poetry and will probably never do. i need prompting to be able to see the richness of the language in poetry , which of course will be absent during tests. im okay with unseen prose, but when im writing i tend to go off point. too much stuff to say lah. only got 18/25 for the recent unseen prose test -_- but the highest was 20 so i guess its not that bad lah huh. hmms.

the thing was lit is that its not that ling2 huo2. there are certain points about the passage that if you bring up, the teachers will definitely mark wrong no matter what you write later on to elaborate on that point, unlike philo test on fallacies where if you explain clearly the teacher would accept regardless of whether you identified the correct fallacy in the answer sheet. thats what i dont like because sometimes what i come up with is vastly different from what the expected answer is and even if i manage to validate my point the teacher will just mark the whole para wrong. sucks eh. sighs.

anyway. came up with a study programme for tmr. is hoping fervently that i'll be able to follow it at least roughly. i have a knack for not doing things according to schedule. hahh procrastination is my middle name >_< lol. well sighs. i dont like text conversion. why cant they just stick with good ol' narrative writing. and chinese. im definitely not going to be able to finish it on time, considering all the lijiewenda that we have to complete plus tian cong plus summary. all in two hours?!

and chem. im okay with it, i just hope that i'll be able to understand the questions. i think i'll be fine from there.

ss. gahhhh. im so scared for ss. all the link link thing. finally i understand how to write a "well-written" comment -inducing essay, but that was only for principles of governance. i dont know what im going to write for active citizenship can. grrrr.

physics. should be fine lah huh, going by the last test. and math. if i dont keep thinking about the ludicrous amount of money i will be wanting to splurge on myself after the math paper and then playing netball (my second fave sport - after softball, of course haha) i should be able to do fine. after all, geom props of circles has been the only topic in math that i'll ever be able to do decently well and prob ever will. ohwells. i just hope that my math marks wont look too bad. fat hope though. what with just passing for the whole of term 3 >_< sighs.

alrights. shall stop complaining. off to finish up my study programme. bye! and all the best for eoys people! jiayou!

my mum is recovering! thank God (:

anyway, i love tuesdays. haha esp days that lead up to exams cos there's no after-school activities heh. can go home with lingxi and shuting and ocean and fanfan (: then talk crap like we always do until we part ways. haha. or discuss schoolwork. good way of revising lol.

today we had pe assessment for softball. guess what hahaaa. for my assessment on batting i hit to jblock (actually not very far lah woops) then mrs anis was like "no extra points for homeruns hah!" o_O hahahah okay. then yah i got excellent for assessment lah duh i mean im a softballer if i dont get that im retarded. so anyway. heh then she was assessing the other groups then my group (me cat lyd yiwen leoleo rachc zishan alexis) played a small game against glow kim shulin kelly lingxi tammie and vanessa i think. yah was so funny they all din wanna bat first so i forced cat to go first hahaha game strategy mah. she can hit grounders so def get on base one. then i went next cos they all forced me to. i was saying "i sure malu myself one you all dont laff at me ah." hahahaa. they were like -.- first glow pitched to me then i swung hard but cos contact not good then the ball is the rgpe soft soft one so it became a foul ball. but the sound was super loud lah glow was cringing. hahaha. okay =P so then next pitch. it was slightly low, all the better for me. i swung aimlessly and it drove straight over everybody's heads and in between the barbed wires over the fence xDD basically, i helped pe dept lose a white bouncy ball. hahahahah. couldnt get over mah. stupid fence. heh. woots. then the second time around mrs anis cheat she helped the other team by standing next to the fence then i hit a driving grounder which bounced on the track then she stopped it with her clipboard i only managed to get safe at second )): lol. so fun hahaha.

during recess, went to change out after pe. guess what. beckykwan's class' ACP was going on. and dear becky was the zhu jiao (leading character) she played a male skeleton and had hideous marks all over her face and around her eyes >< hahah i was so tickled i made pris lend me her cam and then asked her to take a pic of becky and stacey hahaha. cannot use phone out of canteen/foyer mah. stupid becky went to cover her face so pris couldnt take a frontal pic )): but nevertheless it was quite clear who it was haha. i like candid pics (: heh but me and pris became late for lit class. woops.

okays. today so fun (: shall blog more later dad's hurrying me to go for dinner. bye! all the best for eoys everyone (:

my mum has dengue.

sometimes i feel that life is so fragile. this supposed civilisation, the apparent superiority of mankind, the advance of science, can do nothing to guard against the heartbreak, the worry, the anxiety, that stems from a tiny little insect when it decides to answer its instincts.

another thing.

we were coming back from church today. on the way, we stopped at a traffic light. just as the light turned green, a mother and her daughter began rushing across the road.

my dad saw them early and thus waited for them to pass before engaging first gear. just as the car began moving, we heard a loud screech. our heads turned. the driver of a mercedes benz at the far end, not being able to see the pair dash across the road as his view was blocked, had begun moving. he jambraked when they passed his car, just missing them by a few inches.

the driver shook his fists at the mother, who smiled sheepishly back. the daughter looked innocently on.

could the ending have been different? could another two people never see the light of day again? why do people wait to make mistakes before realising that they should have never ventured to cross the perimeter of laid-down boundaries in the first place? why are we so stubborn?

and God, being all-merciful and gracious, has to put up again and again, day after day, month after month, year after year, life after life, of such pure audacity and ill-inspired confidence against His holiness. and yet He had never really shown His full wrath. recently we heard of Hurricane Katrina, of its successor Rita, of famines in countries, and of epidemics like the dengue fever right at our very own doorstep. i say God has finally decided to be more firm with us. the end of the world may be coming, who knows. but what i know is that my family and i will be prepared when Jesus comes again.

will you take up your cross and follow Jesus? the day of the Lord is at hand.

i think i'm really retarded. haha but aniwae.

just crashed-mugged for bio SPA and chem post test tmr. woots i think i'll fail. i do badly in everything. no matter how hard i try, i still come back with results that make my parents stare at me as if im a human with no brains. then all around i get this chorus of "oh i did badly" then when i ask them how much they got, they inevitably will get like WAY HIGHER than me -_-" thanks alot man. that helped.

and everyone's like so hardworking its scary. im still in this slacker mood. but everyday i walk into class and i see vanessa practising math questions from workbook. i hear that didi is practising 10 math qns everyday. yangzhe and zhanghe study together like almost everyday from last week onwards. fanfan went to national library to mug chem last friday. the examples go on and on. and what am i doing here huh? shoo gen. remember your long-lost membership in the muggers' club? reclaim it. it'll be better for your sanity.

anyway. its 10 plus now. time to sleep. and stop musing.